Resurrect From Love. Happy Ease and Stir and Get Outa The Man Cave Today and FLY Free!
listen to the silence
listen to the gaps
the pause
the unspoken
what people do not say is
Far Far More
erudite, enlightening,
Than What They Ever Say.
There may still
be no space in The Consciousness
to release,
From Love Not For Love.
The heart walls remain closed;
shut hearts shut eyes shut lives
up tight up setting up only for a "safe" co-dependent love
closed hearts controlling, in certain armoured prison walls
wounded Chirons wounded warriors and far from whole, worriers
drip fed lies drip fed tired ties drip fed leaky cracked buckets
protective, deflective, insecure,
far from whole.
So instead of an uncertain vulnerability
Being pure whole messy human,
Being certain they know not much at all,
Being gracious and humble and simply saying (not very much at all)
Be The deep witness Be the silent observation Be the receiver who spaciously listens
observe don't absorb
witness don't advise
simply love don't try hard to under stand...
the deflectors and projectors and showy people pleasers
Perfect... Projects... attempts to fix and control and heal and sell bullshit to the cows come home...
healers and dealers and pushers for love, co dependent entitled an insecure arrogance
when still doing things FOR love, pleasing, greasing, appeasing, people still reaching, hard
when FOR love, The Try Hards ceaselessly chasing and seeking and competing, hard, For The Win,
whilst still leaky FOR love, unconscious wounded and wandering and by passing The Subtle Nuance.
Soldier On
Stoic
Stiff Upper Lip
Stern and Trying Ever So Hard To Pre Tend That All Is Hunky Dory Ok
Facades of Mansplaining
Facades Of Closed Hearts
Fools as Facades of selling telling yelling over wall papered cracks
quick cover it up, soldier on stoic, quick sand fools with facades and fakirs NOT holding space
too busy too blinkered too covered up and still full of the ungrounded false self
soldier on stoic ego, a still tight bound wounded prison heart
soldier on an ego, still shooting blanks and firing up, reactive, hair triggered To The Max!
sold her on in hard sales, in hard liquor, in a consumptive check out of a junk yard super marketer
soldier on holding limited tight short reigns, labels, dogmas, traditions
"That's The Way We've Always Done It" Stale tepid tight ways of closed "safe" prison hearts
beware The Wounded Chiron
beware The Stale Tepid Tights
beware The Hard Sales Survivor (complex, post, traumatic, stress, disordered?)
beware permanent labels of little boxes and closed frames working you To Death
soldier on in systems clutching straws and drowning more
soldier on with barking orders the limited minimal squawking ego still dis integrated
soldier on with "suck it up buttercup", "I'll Give You Something To Cry A Bout..."
ding dong The Witch Is Dead... a bout a bout seconds out!
Let The Small Ringed Closed Heart Box Heads Sold Her On and Bash It Out...
12 rounds 3 minutes ding dong soldier on stoic stumps thump,
get a more sullied stupid brain pummeled as a dead heart closed, goes on... and on and on
wounded chiron wounded chiron wounded chiron flagellators all
trying hard to win a round, win a Con Test, win buy fixing something NOT even broke Ken?
all FOR love all FOR love all FOR love, of course of course of COARSE! ouch sand, paper, ruff
a round The Edges
butt soldier on
butt shut up
butt
get on with busy and get on with hard and get on with check out more super marketing, junk
soldier on sold her on chained enslaved to The Next Scheduled Mansplain invader colon eyes...
via Kings soldier on, rapacious pill aging soldier on, tell yell sell soldier on all lined up soldier on
butt beneath those shiny badges and trinkets and baubles of hard suited colon eyes armoured hearts
A Character core rotten, a soft centred lacks foundational strength,
Eve of Destruction? War, What Is It Good For? soldier on like Rotten Green Apples In Eden
The asp the snake the viper the soldiering on stoic stiff, A Dam and an Eve Ning, fruity, butt rotten,
sold her on that Gar Den of Iniquity "Surely ONE byte can't hurt" said no won ever...
sold her on Heaven, an anxiety inducing fanta sea land far off in a fairy tail of sales and fans to see?
soldier on as Kings and Queens, safe Stuck Up, The Back,
lined up soldiering on medaling on 8by8 chest bored, manipulate and maneuver peace For The Win!
check mate! no more sly manipulative soldiering on moves, strat he gee? reason? sell a pawn star?
butt come on!
soldier on stoically and get with The Closed Heart Little Boxes Pogrom
of Death Buy One Byte Apple and Other Eves of Tablet Technocrat Destructions
A Dam and An Eve Ning of Gar Den Iniquity, won dirty rot ten app pulled Inn Heaving, NOW!
There's an ASP for that! Snake Eyes shedding skin as The Wounded Chiron Sells another App Pull?
money money money as The Honey Pot Bare, Hey stuffed Paddington, butt growl and sold her on!
just soldiering on doing Rich Hard Scary's Busy Tiny Tinea Town Werk...
as the quick brown fucks jumps over the lazy dog... know THAT's knot write... bull lets, soldier ON!
soldier on stoics suck it up bitter cups get with the pogrom A Dolt Hit Lear? Swas Stick Hers?
butt soldier on...
What a Nasi Goring Eye Dear? get Cook King With Gas! Dutch Oven fer sure...
butt sold her on...
Ex Terminate The Dues, Dr Who, Day Lex?
don't knead that race To Be, Won? So Killing Sally Fields, Khmer Rouge, Exter min ate The Apple
CP3O R2D2 CPTSD ADHD and all other alpha bet labels of Star Warred Doc Tour Who is YOUR Father Luke? Darth Vaper?
butt stoically, like The Greasy Grecian Wheel, soldier On FFS!
Keep Turning and Selling well Heeling for no one is broken except those who THINK they still are
you all all ready write now ARE 100% whole and complete and divine, you may not know real eyes it due to over stoic reasoning and over thinking anxiously running around looking hard for heeling and looking hard for heaven sum wear in the future and then soldiering on sum more selling crap and being sold crap you didn't even know you needed buy wounded chirons who are so wounded them self all seeking and reaching and running around town looking looking looking FOR love, when IN REALITY, what these wounded soldiering ons are trying hard to find and sell to you is right there at the tip of their very large stoic busy body soldiering on knows, once they real eyes for them SELF...
ah ignorance is NOT bliss, it's just more wounded chiron wounding selling salvation, all FOR love
when all whole people whole deep still oceans and infinite sky already know They Come FROM love
full over flowing already whole souls, with a re integrated unfractured ego and already secure and confident and totally complete (a wholeness NOT perfection) so there is no leaky neediness to manifest a god damned thing!
whole messy imperfect humans are already well rested
are already well centred
are already a deep well integrated, a clear clean water flowing from wellness FROM love NOT for love
whole souls have NO NEED TO soldier on, they simply mind their own business and get on with living
no blindly following other's soldiering on stoic closed heart paths,
no blind blinkers being re sold their already free 100% self by wounded chirons,
no pre tension or labels or dogma of doing doing busy busy chasing hard reaching hard, all FOR love
relax, nothing is under control,
for the total whole complete universe includes EVERYTHING. (THAT is already YOUR multitudes...)
The Universe must already include all, other wise it is NOT the universe, it's just a soldier, on route to war,
soldiering on is just another leaky garden of eden fake fucket bucket rotten apples of friends with soldiering on by pass life stoic stiff upper lip pretentious heart closed benefits... why do THAT seeking hard to your self? when you already ARE The 100% Consciousness, already are whole and total, already are the divine union of true nature, your own. You may have just momentarily got conditioned to someone else's side tracked path and lost by believing you need fixing or healing or winning at life.
Those raised from a place of enough know there is enough sun for all.
Those self secure, self contained, already totally whole beings, humans, don't need to manifest or soldier on or compete hard for The Win.
They are already content, they already are satisfied with knowing the True Self, they already come from a deep clear channel of an integrated kind and aligned wholeness, they already are grateful and at peace in this ONE abundant and beauty filled Universe,
Whole people take no shit, firstly and most importantly their own drug addled spiritual by pass check out addictions, they've already moved on from those 101 basics,
and then whole (not perfect) people take even less shit from even more dis integrated noisy, nosy, whining victim egos loudly mansplaining (either gender...) blaming and shaming others and highly insecure fractured projectors who have not even started their return journey by weeding their own family of origin conditioning stories. Dig a little deeper and all shall be revealed, Everything YOU are looking for is already inside, it just depends how deep and how subtle and how nuanced your own reflections on lived experience and choices and lessons and what YOU brought to the table in EVERYTHING that has brought you to This One Current Right Here Now Present Moment.
and very few people wanna even go there, deep into their own psyches and extract their unconscious shit,
because it is far far easier to run and hide and get escaped on drugs and ignore reality and have no fucking clue for most of your life, who you already are...
so keep blindly soldiering on, and on and on again and again and again as patterns repeat
blindly running old scripts and hedonistic escapism, high as kites checked out on super marketing drink and drugs and blind comparative unconscious consumerism or assorted other dopamine control dregs any other artificial adolescent aids and crutches to "get you through" to "loosen up" to "have fun" to "relax and unwind" to "escape feeling the reality of the still disconnected you"
to keep you in this dis integrated ego land
to keep you disconnected from your real whole self
checked out, by passed in lala land and far from knowing your own full story of how you arrived where you currently are, (all those terms and conditions blindly inherited many moons ago can hang on tight, extremely subtle and silent little finely nuanced weeds choking your current oxygen reality unless you choose to KEEP weeding them out...) No biggy, do it as it comes up in the present, but don't blindly soldier on in The Mean Time, for it will be MEAN time... why even do that to your true self?
so beware the wounded chiron selling dross for the floosy flighty ungrounded fun runners...
when YOU already are whole and complete
once coming FROM love. coming FROM wholeness, coming FROM enoughness
not a noisy nosy insecure gold digging neediness stealing centre stage and all the oxygen there
coming form unhealed dis integrated ego child hood wounds of course, like all of us,
sum more than others, some have not even started their return dig out the family weed journey and may never even have the time, inclination or courage to go there. And That is Ok.
Probably wise NOT to get entwined in any unhealed, dis integrated, enmeshed and entitled ego.
That blame shame and finger pointing projection is toxic and can split you in two...
just look at all the mini me children never shown how by controlling or addicted or them self still wounded parents. Mother wounds and father wounds and family of origin wounds are real, we have all been conditioned as children, it just depends if you choose to stop the patterns and draw a line and do the work in grown ass sovereign grown up land.
Or will you still reach for The Bottle or The Boob or The Blaming Flaming Finger Pointing Dis Integrated Angry Insecure Ego and NOT take responsibility for your own shit?
accountability is so core presence.
As is a wholly re integrated ego,
not a transcended artificially ascended bullshit spiritual by pass ego,
not a killed ego,
not a bullied and projected and mansplained ego (either gender...)
not a projected and un listened to and poorly parented rampant competitive mini me control ego
not a beat others into submission my way or the high way, gas lit denial of others lived experience ego
not a noisy nosy busy body manipulative whining mother superior pray on you into submission ego
patterns over time, all of which are so obvious to the quiet aware whole observers,
who just simply get on and do their own thing,
no fuss, no drama, no chaos, no drunks, no gossip,
no whining finger pointing dogmatic victim assholes,
no split personalities no perfect princesses inherited from mummies wounds,
no misogynistic mansplaining with No (Real) Idea (about THEIR whole story)
a limited one narrow track inherited from daddies stoic a drug by pass closed heart,
a dogmatic my (one) way, create another mini me model limited and still worse, more wounded.
those unkind dis integrated harsh assholes, all for ego love,
those chasing hard gold digging co dependent to avoid loneliness, all for ego love
those sweet compliant people pleasing yes sir insipid saccharine all for love life by pass junkies.
those needy dumb fuck insecure projectionists, telling it like it is, gas lighting, hurting others with sharp shard bully words and basically being unkind assholes, starting with and including their own negative self deprecating "only joking" self talk...
why even do that to your self,
You are NOT a joke... You are divine, sublime and mighty fine, EXACTLY as you already are
First Love You!
You come first, self care is NOT a cliche. You matter, you deserve you, first. From LOVE, not for love.
(First Love You, FLY, True Whole Self that is, not some One Impersonating You...The Lost In Living Self, The Fake Self, The Labelled Ego Facade Ego Trying Way Too Hard Running Ego Hard Ego Harsh and Hard, trying hard to get everuone to have the same experience as you, no no no expand the allowance, be more expansive, grow up and smell all the roses, see all the spectrum of colours, feel all the rain and wind and earth and fire, not just those little limited weeds in a limited lived experience or a small tiny mind small boxed briar patch, get out from under that self imposed rock and listen)
see and observe and smile gently, but do not engage with, the many variously labelled wounded chirons attempting to heal and deal and extract from others by soldiering on seeking on selling on and reaching hard, all FOR love!
When they MAY still remain ignorant of FROM love, FROM enough, FROM wholeness NOT perfection. Beware the wounded chiron who wants to tell you who to be or how to act or their way is THE right way. Limited limited limiting still a dis integrated people pleasing keep the peace at any cost non truthful manic panic flighty floozy no boundaries no idea of whole self, yet, easy come easy go trade in and change when reality sets in change partners constant mid stream all too hard a mutual consensual fuck buddy is all they can handle no depth no spine no clue about relating TO SELF, so remain safely single and hyper independent pretending they don't have needs which we all do but a couldn't care less attitude of a wounded little still attached to The Bottle little lost child
beware the wounded chiron all FOR love. all from a deficit, still. Far From Full or Home. So they preach and project and want to win and compete and take take take all they can get as they seek hard the secure attachment and unconditional love and nurturing they MAY have missed out on as children.
Re parenting is real, Thanks Mum Thanks dad.
Do NOT by pass the whole ego re integration.
You may reach for pain killers (the bottle, the shop. the dross, the mansplaining stay in control what ever you do, don't be real or vulnerable or show any sign of being a whole full spectrum human and totally satisfied and content within your Own True Nature)
beware the wounded chiron, attempting to heal or sell YOU your self,
Those still selling The Less Than Whole Self,
Trying Hard For Love Self, The leaky Self,
The overly absent and so far in front of self they can't even feel the start and the end of the real self, those who by pass to avoid them self, avoid their own true nature with pretty shitty checked out wasted spaces and places and certainly with no grace to even hold space for self, let alone another.
Insecure ego is still bound up with unhealed wounds.
Insecure ego is still hard seeking certainty and security and must win at life at any COST.
Insecure ego dominates, mansplains and tells you who to be and what to do.
Insecure ego is dogmatic, full of reason, narrow credence, unstable and fractious, my way or the highway style, often angry and argumentative and makes others walk on eggshells, a dis integrated ego finds concentration and paying attention to another or any other almost impossible as the fractured controlling ego is way too dis integrated to allow another to possibly share The Extremely Limited Inner Space. If the dis integrated insecure ego is all gunked up with old patterns, old survival strategies, old ways of doing things, how could that inner being (The outa shape ego) possibly have fresh nascent clam, clear, from love space to genuinely share, no strings attached, with an equal, another?
Until we create that calm abiding inner space, get still and grounded, be our real self once we know who we REALLY are, (a reintegrated whole ego again) THEN we may choose to come FROM Love FROM wholeness and NOT for love, a neediness, a disconnection from Self, seriously projecting from a wounded relative ego, a for love try hard insecure fractured ego that does NOT yet know The Whole True Self. So get to know your Self. Who Am I? without ANY terms and conditions, without family wounds mother wounds father wounds ex wounds sibling wounds society wounds church wounds meia wounds moaning whining lack of freedom wounds or intergenerational inherited wounded patterns.
Which we all have, just very diverse conditions we were all exposed to whilst the psyche developed waaaaay back then BUT still runs the show RIGHT NOW, if we remain dis integrated and insecure and people pleasing and hard win projecting stuck in tiny minds and tiny towns without getting out of your comfort zone regularly and growing some wings to FLY! (first love you...) It sure as hell aint rocket science, although some mudda duckers sure make FLY so god damned hard.
You come first, fuck what anyone else tries hard to sell you.
so a BIG FAT NO to
soldiering on
stiff upper lips puckered and pursed and blindly obedient follow fallow shallow, last orders?
Those who can't ever share vulnerably can Never talk about That Shame
or That Pain
or That Grief
or That Wound
or That Ex or Child or Father or Mother or Sibling who fucked you over
unless you clear the runway, well lit, wide, receptive, safe, NOTHING Can land...
the jets will just go around and around repeatedly making loopy loop noises in your head
until you run out of fuel, exhausted, at your wing tip limits, and then you crash land, crash and burn, because you simply cannot maintain that bullshit of not paying attention.
To Your Own Internal Flight Control. From Love.
To Your Real Self. From Love.
No terms and conditions on the tickets. From Love.
FLY FLY FLY free birdy. committed to True Nature.
Your Own. First.
One Creature In Creation.
Unique, not special.
it is always YOUR 100% choice who you fly free with.
so flock off and FLY with the other little flockers,
fun and free and flapping and pecking, pinching crumbs you little shitting pigeon you.
any also Be
That soaring solo eagle with razor sharp eyes, gliding, majestic and so naturally high on warm up lifting currents.
Be both, be whole, be real and FLY free my fine feathered friends,
You are already whole,
you already are free,
you already are included in The Universe of Self,
as within, so without,
no self imposed cages, ever,
please,
