Lived Experience. Be Kind. Take No Shit.

The full spectrum of life energy, vitality, aligns when one fully releases all patterns of conditioning through forgiveness.

It’s not just about forgiving others, forgiveness is for the self that could not feel, know or sense what was in front of it due to a wall of once needed emotional armour, a past lack of sensuality and sensitivity with life, "back in the day". These innate "choices" may have once kept me safe from predators, evil, emotional abuse and all forms of neglect and violence, no matter how subtle.

Usually any conditioning came from from family of origin or close circles. It is common and unique to each individual. We all have layers of conditioning hiding the core absolute Truth. Or love. Without conditions. 

Embrace, accept, allow the messy rise of the path home, before any fragmentation and separation which was once, many moons ago, designed to keep you safe and alive. 

But That was Then, This Is Now.  Providing we do our work. 

Thank others sincerely for the experience of what grace is not and calibrate to the bandwidth of informed, conscious choice. Thank everyone for helping you. Be grateful for it all. 

Now I know better, I do better. 

Messy imperfect human style, not some mystical spiritual bypass style.
Or perfectionism, OCD, anxious/depressed, or people pleasing.
All "labels" I've lived through or been diagnosed with. Gladly. 
Medicated, over medicated too, Mostly to keep me alive. At different points of the journey. 

So having shifted and travelled back to "life" (literally) through the full range of still limited mythological concepts, psychological mind phrases or therapy of relative stepping stones, I see and sense the deep dark hole I once was existing in. 

All needed, all wonder full. All necessary. 

Just not where I am now heading.
By design and choice. No rush, all Ok. If it does, great. If it doesn't great. 

The early small fruits of my once limited seeds are for relativity to consume. 

Do not choose the poisoned apple, do not keep rotten fruit, even if only bruised on the surface and consume them as your own. 

In our community garden, I now have a wider choice. I can tend my own organic patch and grow my own. Do my own work. Interdependent in an aligned vital community who share in earth's juicy sweet abundance.  I love growing avocados, my business partner tomatoes. Shen bananas and Sally potatoes.  Other's nuts... Let's share in the abundance.  

If my kindness, trust and care were once exploited, I call it out now, and return to a sacred container, reflect, take responsibility, ownership and release any intrusion of the experience. Strong core means boundaries are obsolete as No Thing wavers you from that rock solid foundation, self knowledge. 

Then we cycle like nature, possibly hibernate through winter, and spring with resilience and more wisdom than what was available before the experience. Repeat, ad infinite. 

I know how to discern shape shifting tricksters, energy vampires, before they speak. 

Their energy announces them well before their words. 

Until any new attempts to unhinge my absolute sovereignty, for now I am wiser for the actions contained deep in a core sacred space within. Cellular Lived experience, life's most splendid gift.